Psalm 139

O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I'm far away.

You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!

I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave, you are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night-
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother's womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me.
O God.
They cannot be numbered!
I can't even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.

Oh Lord, shouldn't I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn't I despise those who oppose you?
Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

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My dear sweet Lord. Guide me...know my heart...take ownership of my soul and guide me Lord. Lead me from sin my lord and forgive me for the times that I do...You know me...every ounce of me. Sometimes I want to hide from you...like Adam and Eve because of shame, but I am glad that is not possible. I'm glad you hold me accountable for my sins Lord and forgive me for all the wrongs I have done. Without you weighing my heart my Lord, I could very well completely drift off into the insanity of this world and pretend not to even know you. I am happy Lord that not only does your hand guide me, but I have friends who encourage the same. If it were not for your love of me and their love of you...I could easily get lost in this world. You are my rock, my wall, the giver of life and creator of love. If I were to sit here and think of all that I have, my instinct might be to want more, but my soul just wants you and to thank you for everything you HAVE given me. May I always hear you in my heart and trust you always...

A new wall...

Today I've got a new wall up in my life...it's not made of fear, it's not made of my life's poor experiences...this wall...this SHIELD...this my God and he's the protector of my soul! He is my sword, my shield, my rock, my wall, my house, my tower, my heart, my love, my eyes beyond sight, and when I mess up, he is my redeemer.

He protects me from skipping accidents on escalators... :) He inspires my heart...he's got the match that lights the fire in my soul...

Awesome prayer session today man...thanks for helping me to understand you so much more and guiding me. I submit myself to you...whatever your plans, wherever you take me...sometimes my own will might get in the way and sometimes my apathy might get between you and I, but when it comes down to the bottom line...it's you Lord...only you.

You save me...when I drown, you extend your hand and it's my job to grab it so that you can pull me up...I trust you, even through pain.